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NYE 2015

12/31/2015 07:19:00 AM

I just did post this on my NEW photography page but, it rings true for everything! 



If you think about it this really is true. A new year brings 365 new days of chances, adventure and opportunities. 

I hope all of my family and friends make the most of this new year! 
 
Happy 2016 everyone! 

(I post thy now because I'll forget to post later tonight)! 

Ethan Jolly

It's about time I wrote you...

12/31/2015 04:52:00 AM



I'll start off with this. 



Since I know you and your entire family frequent my blog I figured this was a good place to write this. This is meant in good fun, if it hurts your feelings I'm sorry. 



Dear him and everyone else, 

To him...
I know we have said a lot of mean things back and forth directed at each other, truths have not been told and children have suffered. However, in the end I can't find it in myself to hate you.. You still won't tell the truth about what happened and I'm ok with that, if I have to bare the burden and be the bad person I will... God knows the truth and for me to continue to harp on it only poisons my mind he will get my wrong doers in the end. Truth is God gave us two miracles and you had no right to take them from me, I never hurt them and you know that... I couldn't. You took them to hurt me and I hope one day you are able to overcome your need to hurt others, I pray for you everyday. I would like to say that you have no idea what you've taken but you do, you know what you're doing and you know how bad you're hurting not only me but our amazing children... No one deserves what has taken place, NO ONE. I pray everyday that you will come around and realize letting our kids have a mother and a father that love them is the ultimate greatness and that you will let that happen. 

To his wife... 
As jealous of you as you think I am... I am not. I'm actually quite happy for you that you found someone that was able to place stability in your life and your child's, I know that was something you desperately needed at that time in your life. In the end your relationship is extremely different than mine so you should be very thankful for that... No one needs to love like we did, ever. I know that you think I'm totally obsessed with you and can't wait to lash out but that too is extremely so far fetched. In the grand scheme of things you and I should be able to get along for the sake of MY children but sadly I don't feel that you at this time are capable of doing that. It's like you hold hate in your heart and that astounds me... I didn't do anything to YOU. At all. You slept with my then husband, you came into my home, you went around my children... I did none of those things to you. I had respect for you as a woman and strangely, I still do... I actually have respect for any other human. I have every reason to hate you but I don't. I am thankful you came into his life at the time you did, I could very well be dead by now.
I have a family now that means more to me than anything, we are loyal to each other, no knives are thrown and there is absolute 100% trust... I never had that at all so you don't know how good it feels and that's all because of you and your choices that I ended up where I am. So thank you. Thank you thank you thank you! 
My hope for you and I is that one day you can set down your torch and guide your husband into co parenting. 
Children don't stay children forever. 

And to his mom, 
I will never forget what you've done but I will forgive you. You know what you did to me and there is no reason to draw it out or hold grudges. Again, if it wasn't for YOUR actions I wouldn't have ended up where I am now I am so glad that you allowed another woman around mine and your sons children while I was away, you were such an amazing person to me and I am so glad that when I trusted you with my children you were able to do the right thing!
I love my life and you in part are the reason I have it. I hope you too one day can find it in your heart to do right by my babies and do the right thing, I don't fault you if you don't though... I know how hard being a grandmother and wanting to do the right thing but also wanting to back what your children's wishes are. I do know that I would never alienate my grandchild from his parents though, I couldn't imagine doing that... I don't know where you find the strength. I applaud you. 

To his sisters, 

 "The crafty one"
I see Karma found you well, I think she might be an even bigger bitch than you pretended to be. I hope that you find success in your t-shirts and key chains though... Seems to be lucrative. 

"The meth head" 
No really, I totes know you were smoking tobacco out of the lightbulb... I'm just kidding. Your daughter is beautiful, please raise her better than you were... It broke my heart to see you do the things you did and act the way you did. I know it's not your fault and I am so glad to see you're actually functioning in society. 

And to the dad...
I used to think you were cool, you saw your son abuse me first hand but then like all the others you lied to protect him. I pray that you are raising my son to be a better man than yours turned out to be. 


So please, all of you love on my babies and remind them how much they are loved. There should never be a day that goes by where they aren't told exactly how much they are loved. Hug them tight and remember that if it wasn't for me, the person you took them away from you wouldn't have them. Remember if it wasn't for me, the person that carried them for 9 months, protected them and mothered them when no one else wanted to they wouldn't be here. So make sure you tell them they are loved. 

That is all. I am starting 2016 with a clear mind and a free heart. I know I've done everything right, I know I have made efforts and I know in the end my time with my babies will be amazing when we are able to love freely and without chains. 

I pray for all of you each day. We are never promised tomorrow and I could never imagine thinking it was ok to play God... 

I hope all of you enter 2016 with happiness and love in your hearts. 

Life

Ok so... I changed.

12/30/2015 03:34:00 AM

Nothing really, I moved my blogs from one google account to another. I'm deleting accounts and condensing things and honestly good to rid yourself of the past! Nothing bad at all just so many different email accounts through the years and all spread out, not they are all on one account and easily accessible! Woohoo! 


Speaking of change... Looky here!

This happened this past month! 
Back in 2014 when I decided to take a break from new clients I also decided on a name change. I made my new page then deactivated both of my Facebook pages until about a week before Thanksgiving of this year! I brought both pages back up, merged my old to my new and viola... I am now Jama Wynn Photography! Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVED the name Remember Wynn but it was hard to identify myself as being the owner... So many different people use that name and no one was able to find just me. Given the nature of my highly unusual first name I figured I'd go with that! I love it, I'm happy and I hope to grow even moreso after this "rebrand!" This new year is going to be an exciting one for sure, I can't wait to get back into it!  
Of course, my rebrand couldn't go down without a "copycat" but I won't mention names... I'll just sit back and laugh at the obsession. 

It's the day before the day before the last day of the year... Did I confuse you? I might have even confused myself with that one! 

Looking forward to a new year and definitely a new me! So many exciting things I haven't even touched on are happening in my life! 

Bye y'all!

Christmas

The day before the day before Christmas...

12/23/2015 03:50:00 AM

So, it's the day before Christmas Eve and I think I am completely done shopping, I'm probably not but one can hope! 


The other day I got my hair cut, it's a little shorter than I had intiaitlly wanted but I'm really liking it! I just need to redye it to touch up my horrible looking roots! 


Yeah, you see that right. The Kia, smashed up and looking sad. A deer was hit on a country back road and I'm actually impressed with this tiny little car, it took one hell of a hit and kept on rolling. If you can believe this that head light STILL lights up! A new car is coming in January so we are now definitely looking towards another Lia... Quite impressed with how this car held up! Sad thought that it's banged up. 

I have two new obsessions lately... Easy fudge and MukLuks. 

I know, two totally unrelated things but still totally obsessed. 
That fudge up there is milk chocolate fudge and cranberry white chocolate fudge... OH. MY. YUM! I'll post the recipe later when I feel like it. 
MukLuks you ask? OMG, I'm addicted to them and can not stop buying them in every form they make them in, check them out... You'll love them too! 

I can't wait until Christmas day, I want to go back to my mamas so bad I can't stand it! 48 more hours and I will be at my mamas house! Wooohoooo

Anyways, I leave you with this... It is so me. And Thing 1. 



My Love Of Trader Joes

Just UGH already...

12/09/2015 07:38:00 AM

I am still sick from when I was sick back in October. Just ugh. 

My ear infection has moved from one ear to another with so sign of letting up. I'm not sleeping right, definately not eating right and I just feel gross. 
Night sweats? Yeah, that's my new thing and I absolutely hate them! I'm literally drenching my entire bed as I sleep and the fan is doing absolutely nothing to help. It's funny actually, my pink hair is turning everything my sweaty sleeping head comes into contact with pink. 
Like I said I haven't been able to eat much so I've pretty much been living on these things:


I'm going to cry when the Christmas season is over and this flavor is gone gone gone until next year. Most people cry over lost pumpkin but not me, I'm going to be missing the Trader Joes cranberry items! I'm thinking of stock piling but that just entices me to eat them all, they are like Girl Scout cookies... I can't stop. 

Speaking of TJ's... How cute is this advent calendar I picked up last month for the kids?! 


And one more bit of randomness... The other day I went to Gwinnett and look what I saw... 



Christmas

Oh Christmas Tree...

12/06/2015 01:40:00 AM

Last year after Christmas I tossed out both of our trees that we had. I did this because I knew I was moving and they were on their last leg... Like literally one was missing a leg and I had to use a fork to hold it up. Anyways, this year I went back and forth with the idea of a Christmas tree because we won't actually BE HERE on Christmas. I took the kids to Walmart and I allowed them to pick everything for our tree, they did good!


That's the tree during the day time with the lights on. This year we went with LED lights and I'm glad we did, they are super bright and light up my huge living room!


You see that? Bright bright bright lights! Oh, I also love the choic EIN stockings! So non traditional but still so cute! 

Last but not least a cute photo that shows the tinsel garland the kids picked up close, again... I think the kids did good! I'm proud of it! 


One more for the fact that I love it!


Edit to add: we don't use tinsel because we have cats that come inside and tinsel can kill them! :-)

Birthday

Happy Birthday Ethan.

12/06/2015 12:57:00 AM

You are now a teenager!!! 
I hope that your birthday brought you everything you hoped and wished for. I saw that you played a Magic tournament today, I hope you did good and had fun sweet boy! 


Half of your childhood was stolen from us. One day it won't be like this, I promise you that... They can only have control for so long before it will all crumble. 

Happy Birthday Ethan Scott Jolly, I love you and miss you so much baby! 

Love,
Your ONLY mama. 💗

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I am not sure why this didn't post earlier!? It showed as pending so hopefully it will post now! 


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